Through A Forest Pitch Dark…

I know that I will never go back to where I came from. My mind will never be in that dark place where it rested for all those horrible years. And though I take comfort in knowing this, it is still hard to try and balance the disfunction that still exists in my life. Food obsession, anxiety. binge eating disorder, co-dependence, and beyond. It is exhausting when all I strive for is a simple, healthy life where I can focus on wonderful people around me and all I have been blessed with rather that preoccupying my time, dwelling on what I ate today and what I am going to eat tomorrow.

I am going to watch this number shrink. I am ashamed of the weight I have gained.